Balance

I don't know if balance is something I should be striving to achieve or not achieve.  I need to find a balance with my physical, mental and emotional stimulation.  That balance I need.  But do I need work/family/play balance?  I'm spending a ton of time at work and I hate it.  I'm making good money, my co-workers are awesome, my job is fairly interesting, the people I am working for (I am a contractor) are all smart and good individuals but I am not happy.  Is this what work is?  You do something you aren't thrilled with to make good money?  Is this what being an adult is?  I know this is what being an adult is to a lot of people...

I find enjoyment in my trivia work, I find enjoyment in programming my own projects and I find some enjoyment in poker. If I could do these three things for a decent career I could spend more time with my family because I'd be knocking out work/play in the same activities. 

I ditched work today (Sunday).  I am burned out, tired all the day, depressed, a bit anxious but more indifferent than anything else.  And currently awake at 2:30 am because I slept for 5-6 hours during the day.

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